kiss me until i forget how worthless i am

Freaking out about my weight right now.

I am 5’1.5” and I weigh 121 pounds. I want to weigh 93, which is the lowest possible healthy bmi. I would really rather be 90 or 85, but we’ll see. I’m not losing weight fast enough. I’m scared of my anorexia getting bad again but at the same time I don’t think I can eat anymore. I don’t want to relapse, but I don’t know if I can stop it anymore. It won’t be my anorexia getting bad if I’m a healthy weight right? 93 is a healthy bmi.

  • Always say yes to seeing friends
  • Eat breakfast every day
  • Recognize that positive change rarely happens overnight
  • Accept the fuck-ups, but try not to let them happen again
  • There is a song to remedy every situation on the planet
  • Appreciate the people in your life
  • Look for the good in everything
  • Try new things and try them often
  • Treat yourself as well as you treat others

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Hello Lovelies.

Message me, please? I care about each and every one of you and I’m here to talk about anything and everything with no judgement. <3

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I wish people could just say how they feel like ‘Hey I really don’t like when you do that to me’ or ‘Hey I’m in love with you’ or ‘Hi I really miss you and I think about you all the time’ without sounding desperate. Why can’t everyone be painfully honest and just save people the trouble.
Unknown (via undeadlife)

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best song ever.

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I want you all to know I’m getting better. I think.

I hope. I get out of bed and do what my therapist tells me to. I haven’t cut or purged or used in months. But I don’t want you to think that I’ve forgotten what it’s like to be there. To not get out of bed, or constantly wish for death. I’m not happy but I’m trying and I believe in each and every one of you. I don’t get to go on tumblr much but I will try to go on more. If anyone needs support or a friend you can message me. I care about you and I believe in you. You don’t have to go through your struggles alone. 

Hey yall I’m in the hospital

I wont be on very often, but know I’m alive xoxo

Anonymous asked:
hi Nicole... You're amazing for staying here in this world after all you've been through. Good job girl :)

aww thank you love you too

Anonymous asked:
are you on medicine? if you are what kind? I'm on Prozac and it doesn't seem to work

zoloft and tennex


I don’t understand life

I have barely eaten in 2 days

Feeling alright a little shaky but motivated

Getting high everyday, it’s chill as fucck. I’ve been blazing it up.